SH.Hinata-murderer: Kissu. Ch9

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SasuHina. Hinata is a murderer:  Kissu. Ch9.


-Oi, Hinata, can we have a talk? – Asked Naruto, just as soon as Hinata finished her bowl of ramen. On his face a nervous smile. Hinata nodded… What else could she do?

The moment they stopped in the small forest, Hinata started to feel uneasy. It was little bit strange that Naruto wanted to talk with her in private… About what?

-Hinata… When Pain attacked Konoha, you told me that… - Naruto stopped; he couldn't bring those words over his lips. –That I love you. – Hinata finished.

-Yes… I was so busy and my head was full with other thought that I just… Forgot about that. – Naruto quietly said, taking few steps closer to Hinata. Hinata sighed, a light smile appearing on her face.

-But I am sorry about that… And I can answer now. – Naruto said and leaned closer. Hinata took a small step back, not big enough to not touch with lips. Naruto kissed her.

It was so strange… For so many years that was what Hinata wanted from Naruto… She wanted to hear a confession from him… But this wasn't it. This wasn't a confession, this was nothing… Just a calming kiss that made Hinata's heart race little bit faster for a moment.

Hinata took a step back, smiling at Naruto sadly. –Don't… Don't do this. – Hinata whispered, her expression the saddest anyone could ever make. –Why? I thought you wanted this… - Naruto whispered in return. He wasn't sure what to think.

-Naruto, don't… There is no need for you to pretend that you like me or that you want to be with me, just because I had some hard time in life. – Hinata said, looking in Naruto's ocean blue eyes. She still liked the color and the brightness of his eyes.

Naruto's eyes widened.

-I kept my feelings for you, for many years… I know what kind of a person you are! You like Sakura, you always did. But you will sacrifice your happiness for others… I don't need it that way. – Hinata placed her hand on Naruto's cheek.

-I didn't like you "just because"… I had reasons for it… Many reasons that other people didn't knew about you… I loved you… But I don't need it this way and I can understand why you did this. – Hinata smiled, her smile now lighter, warmer than before.

-I am a strong person… Much stronger than you think, so you should stop worry about me and start to worry about yourself and your own happiness… Hokage-to-be-Sama. – Hinata said and laughed. Her laugh so light and clear, like a birth singing in the early spring morning.

-I believe in you… I was the first one who believed in you and will be the last one whose hope will die… The Kissu keep for Sakura… She keeps dear feelings for you and it will hurt her much more if you will leave her too… It's enough already that Sasuke left… And now is willing to destroy the home that we all keep dear. – Hinata's hand feel down from Naruto's cheek.

At the sound of Sasuke's name something cut a deep wound in her heart…

-The whole village is counting on you… You are their hero, their next leader… Hokage-to-be-Sama and you don't have the time to think only about me… You have to finish your dream… You're already halfway done… Just little bit more and you will be the person you wanted to be… And you will be with the people with who you wanted to be. That's your dream, which will never die. – Hinata sighed.

What I am talking about!? Hinata thought… Why suddenly I decided to tell him everything so clearly? Don't tell me… I am totally giving up on the person who I loved for so many years?  Hinata looked at her hands. That's just dumb! She scold herself.

-I never knew you were such a person… I never knew that you were the one who always stood right there beside me, to give me a hand when I needed it… I never knew… - Naruto looked sad, rather hurt, because of his childish blindness.

-Mm… I was too slow… Always… Someone always was ahead of me even not knowing that I stood right there, beside you, whenever you felt bad, good, hurt, blessed… Always, but I am a stronger person than you think… I am different from what people imagine me to be. – Hinata smiled. The warm smile that only she could give to people, no matter what the situation was.

-I am sorry… - Naruto mumbled. Hinata's light and clean laugh filled the air. –Don't be! I don't regret anything! Thanks to you, I became who I am right now so there is no need to be sorry… Besides, I will have a plenty of time to get back on you… - Hinata smiled. This smile was so bright… Brighter than anyone had. Even Naruto.

-Thank you. – Naruto mumbled and hugged Hinata. She could hear Naruto's heart beating rapidly… Was it because he was happy about what Hinata said? Or because right now he was hugging a beautiful girl, who turned out to be not the way he expected? Who knows…?

-Now go… You probably have a lot of things to do. – Hinata said and let Naruto go. She turned him around and pushed Naruto to the exit from the forest. –Hurry up! – Hinata said, with a hope that Naruto will not turn around.

He rushed… Rushed out of the forest, but right before he was out from Hinata's sigh, he stopped. No! Hinata thought.

When Naruto turned around, there was nobody. –Where did she go? – Naruto mumbled before he was out of forest.

If he could have been little bit more attentive, he would have noticed the sleeve, which was seen behind a tree… But that was Naruto. Hinata knew he would have turned around and give his bright smile and wave… But not this time.

No, Hinata couldn't let Naruto see how unstoppably the tears where flowing from her eyes. How could she let Naruto see this after such an amazing speech? And how could Hinata cry like this for a person on who she already gave up?

The Kissu was the way she imagined. Naruto's hot lips ghost still lingered on hers… Was this the kiss that Hinata longer for so long?

It was… But it didn't felt right… Not the way Hinata thought it would feel… The kiss with Sasuke felt right, no matter how you look at it.

If Sasuke saw this, what would he say? Hinata thought and laughed sadly. No! Hinata panicked. Why, even only thinking about Sasuke, the wound in her chest became deeper and more blood was streaming out from it. It hurt so much.

Will I ever see him again? Thought Hinata and sighed. That was unnecessary, right? What would he do if he saw me crying like a little child? Hinata laughed… Of course he wouldn't say anything, because that wouldn't be he then.

Passed some time when Hinata finally could calm down.

Oh my God! Hinata you're pathetic! Crying like a baby when decided to give up on the love of your life!? Who does that!? Hinata started laugh. Quietly, yet clearly. Life long crush isn't the biggest worlds problem! That will change… The time will pass and I will be as new… As always when he turned down my help… Or I wasn't able to tell him or ask him something… It always was okay after some time. Hinata hit the tree.

Her hand hurt, but she didn't made a sound at the beginning… Then Hinata started to laugh. What a pathetic and horrible kid I was!? I can't believe it! Why did I even came back? Her head was full already. What else she could do? There weren't other chances…

Team Taka… I didn't had a place there, but I know I did belong there… I was at least helpful at something. Hinata looked at her hand. –Oh crap! – She said when saw the cranked arms joint. –Did I hit it that strong? – She mumbled and fell to the ground.

What are the reasons to even worry about that? What is my goal in the life now? Help Neji? Help Naruto? Help village? No… I am not needed here so why I have to stay in the place where no one keeps me dear? Hinata sighed. She calmed little bit and headed over to the hospital.


-Hinata, what happened with your arm? – Asked Sakura, while put on the gyps. –Nothing. – Hinata mumbled. Her eyes were empty; of course Hinata didn't care what to answer Sakura… She would have rather prepared to keep quiet at all.

-Maybe you will come and help me out here, when will be ready? – Sakura smiled at her, as if this whole time didn't pass. As if it would make a difference. –I don't know. – Hinata mumbled and looked at Sakura.

Hinata couldn't bring herself to hate Sakura! Why!? Naruto liked her! Maybe he loved her! Sasuke had feelings for her to! Why she couldn't bring herself to hate Sakura!?

Of course she couldn't. That wasn't Hinata. Like this she could only start to hate herself more than already did.

-Hey Hinata, be careful. – Sakura said when Hinata was leaving hospital. –Sakura, don't hurt Naruto and help him when he needs it. – Hinata said and tried to smile. The sad smile that appeared on her face, made Sakura even more worried than the words that she speak.


Where her legs were bringing her? She was home, packed some thing… For what? When Hinata stood in front of the exit from village, everything was clear. She was ready to leave the village, but she still wasn't ready to come back.


The morning when chaos collapsed over Konoha, everything wasn't the way they expected. Hinata was gone, while the team Taka, Sasuke's team tried to destroy the home that Hinata couldn't stand at the moment.

And Sasuke saw the things that happened last night… He was watching to know when was the safe time to attack the place that he no longer kept dear. Now he could take a revenge on the village… Take a revenge on Naruto, for hurting Hinata even not knowing that… Take revenge for being the hero of the village that killed his whole clan.